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03/31/09--10:46: Lonliness (chan 2058979)




When I was younger I had no one, no one to call friend, no one to help me, no one to cheer me up and praise me. As I grew older I started to open more, associated with people more easily somewhat. High school came, made some friends, called some family, good times, bad times, the works ya know? Prom came, no date and went by myself and watch all my friends with their dates have a good time, emo moment much? Summer vacation, friends drifted carrying on their own lives and dare to say that I am a bad friend to not keep in touch with any of them when in fact no one ever once called me just to say hi. Befriended someone I knew in high school, wer


04/01/09--00:02: People (chan 2058979)




You think you all are superior compared to those with actual originality. Ganging up on us just because we think up of names or words with no generic meaning and just going by the concept of the word in question sounding nice, or personal, or be unique in it's own way. Now that I think about it, it's more than that. All of you in your blissful cozy groups just because you "think" you belong together based on the fact that you're the same race, or are in the same team, or club can pick on and weed out those who happen to be to themselves leading them to terrible lives or possibly killing themselves. Some of you even have to gall to screw up a


04/01/09--20:46: An Ode To My Love (chan 2058979)




Tabitha, you're the best thing to ever happen to me, you make happy in days of grief and cry tears of joy when I feel alone. I love the moments we share, both good and bad, and am glad that for the first time I have pleasurable memories that I want to remember. You mean the world to me and am the only thing I see fitting to live for in my wretched life. You have given me a new reason to move on and find the strength to push forward. Not only that, but you are my best. We can always find stuff to do and never be bored, talking about absolutely nothing and still be entertained. We are perfect for each other in more ways than many and I wouldn't


04/02/09--19:25: College (chan 2058979)




College, oh how dreadful it is. Bad enough that I hate school all together, but I go didn't move out of home. Most might think, what's the big deal? For me, it's the concept of a mother constantly breathing down your neck, asking you what your grades are and telling you, with a hint of a threatening tone in the voice, that you had better do well in school. Lately I've been failing and having to lie to her about all of my grades gets a little sickening after a while. Not just that, but I have a hard time dealing with failing at anything. When I do, it feels like I am nothing and can't do anything. So because of that I am constantly discouraged


04/17/09--17:45: I... (chan 2058979)




I don't know what to do. I thought that by making out a note stating my concerns and troubles and giving it to my mother along with the fact that I want to change my college path, everything would go smoothly. I was wrong.. Upon taking the note, I pleaded with her to give me time alone with my friend, she told me no in a very rough voice. It felt like an iron spike tearing away at my flesh. She took the note and called up my father, who luckily was calmer than my mother. He told me that later on we would all sit down and talk things through during the same night. He hasn't come home yet. Crying and sobbing my face wet, I went to my room. He t


04/22/09--15:34: Interesting ^_^ (chan 2058979)




Boys (or girls), would you:

[ ] Push me into a wall and kiss me?
[ ] Come To My House To Do Nothing But Chill?
[ ] Slap Me?
[ ] Slap me if i asked you to?
[ ] Kiss Me?
[ ] Let Me Kiss You?
[ ] Watch A Movie With Me?
[ ] Take Me Out To Dinner?
[ ] Take A Shower With Me?
[ ] Take Me Home For The Night?
[ ] Let Me Sleep In Your Bed?
[ ] Take Me Anywhere With You
[ ] Repost This For Me To Answer Your Questions?
[ ] Lock Me In Your room And Take Advantage Of Me?
[ ] Let me lock you in your room and Take Advantage of you?
[ ] Let Me Make You Breakfast?
[ ] Make me breakfast?
[ ] Tickle Me?
[ ] Let Me Tickle You?
[ ] Stick Up F


05/04/09--16:42: Random (chan 2058979)




Eh, things haven't been going so well as of late. Internet was on the fritz, so I got it fixed. Soon as that was done, Xbox 360 gets the Red Rings of Death. That point, I was pissed, but moving on. Sent for the box to so I could send it in for repairs via internet, but as luck would have it, my version of Windows isn't genuine, saying that I need a new product key. Right there, I was infuriated. Started the system recovery process so I could fix the problem. Seems okay for now. Mind you all this happened in the same day, so yeah, that pretty much made me think that I have no luck whatsoever. Then I recall a certain Facebook video message sayi